Hands in the air; wave 'em like ya just don't care!

Now I'm just wondering what all this is about...

I don't post often...

Maybe that will change / Maybe not. All goes with the theory. 

I've been hurt. Hurt deeply. Not recently but in my past. I'm sure I've hurt others too, but not intentionally. I don't even know how intentional the hurt to me was... But I know it was no accident.  

I don't speak of it. I can't. I hope the pain goes away but I can't see how right. I am blessed with the people by my side. 

I love my family. I love my friends. I'm thankful for them all. 

Deut 32:35

Just...

EFF It!!!

Going Green!

So I've started a new path in my career. One year ago I would not have been so eager or so motivated. Big business was wearing thin and the corporations did not seem to have that niche' offering that I desired to fill. I was as I have lately often referred to it as being 'Stuck in a rutt...'. I know, doesn't sound appealing, it wasn't. I was wondering if the 9-5 was for me, even questioning technology or sometimes even self worth.

So over the past 11 months I looked outside as well as inside. I questioned who I was, what I wanted personally and professionally. I've made some profound changes. Developed friendships that I am certain will last a lifetime. Sadly some changes don't always seem positive. I've recently had what I thought was a friendship fall completely apart and in doing so has actually made other observations definitive and certain.

So yes I start a new facet of my career, as well as a new facet of my life. My friends (true friends) are strong and will always remain so. I'm diligently trying to not become so callus that the reward from giving will always outweigh the cost. Trying desperately to not over-extend myself (that's a tough one for me). Trying to remain positive and upbeat it what is sometimes too often not a positive and upbeat world. I smile and say hello to everyone. People like that.

So the morning becomes day, and day into night. I live happy, I love freely and I walk in my own shoes.

Oh yeah, I'm so friggin excited about the opportunities in front of me that mo way am I looking back now. Yes I still do photography as a love and side profession, but I'm not pursuing that as a career, maybe retirement, but technology IS my career. I am as one of my best friends puts it: an iDork. I wear that monicher proudly. Thank you C, definitely my Bestie!!!

Until I feel compelled again.

Pete!


-- Blog'd From My iPhone

Why ...

I don't want to get to philosophical here. But why is it that the things that make you happiest often seem sooo out of reach that it feels as if it is impossible to find that level of happiness.

Then there are those things that are immensely rewarding, but the reward (albeit immense) often times does not feed or shelter. So to achieve the reward you freely give up the commodity of time & effort without regret.

I guess that is what gives philanthrapy or the ministry their purpose; although I don't seem to recognize the joy or happiness in philanthrapists that I'm referring to. Ministers seem happy but being that I'm not one I can only speculate on their happiness (FYI: religious or not, I for one don't want to ? A ministers happiness).

So in retrospect, why can't I just get a job where I get to freely give of myself, yet I can still afford a house and maybe two meals a day. I'll cut back to one meal if necessary, I don't need a lavish house, but I do feel I have so very much to give but yet I struggle with the means in which to be able to freely give.

Just why? Eh. I shall plow my field tomorrow and contemplate more. (my field is my front yard, I rented a tiller)


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Just Another Day in ...

So this is my first blog, my first try, my first attempt at trying to seem interesting to anyone out there that happens to find my blog; either randomly or intentionally ...

Anyway, I've named it Blind Squirrel Theory, for that is how a lot of things in my life lately have seemed to transpire.

More to come, hopefully interesting stuff, if not ...  I apologize ahead of time!

FYI (I'm a big fan of the Ellipse, which technically is not the ellipse referenced there, but rather the ellipse referenced here... and here..., but not here...)